On a mission

I have mentioned before how I am on an app called instagram (ig). I describe it as being like twitter with photos. I use it to connect with mom's from all over the united states, and the world actually. I have a few mommy friends from England and even Australia. These ladies have supported me when my family and I were coping with frequent miscarriages, during the time we were trying to conceive, and all through this last pregnancy. Each mommy I have is so different and I learn a lot from them. Through ig I found a very strong support system for breast feeding. I'll be the first to admit that with my first son I was under informed and had no clue what I was doing. Through my 9 months of pregnancy I asked questions and learned from those who were successful, I even learned from those who weren't. I was on a mission to make breast feeding work this time. I did my research and bought an affordable pump. I pump everyday to make sure we h ave a decent stockpile for Jesse to use when I'm in class. We have quite the stash going right now. These first few weeks have been difficult. Figuring out the proper latch. Getting on a schedule. Then realizing that that schedule doesn't mean jack. Loving the fact that I don't have to wash bottles but then realizing that ONLY I can feed him. I've also been learning to breast feed in public. We are still quite new so I use a cover otherwise it would be quite the show. But my goal is to not need that cover anymore. There is no debate that breast milk is best, but my urge to successfully breast feed Jake is more like a mission. I not only CAN do this I WILL do this. And go to school and teach classes and take care of a 2 year old and be a loving wife...... I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.